two types of problem

it's been awhile since my last post, so, i already started my new term. i'm really glad that my mother didn't mad at me because of my bad scores from last semester. of course i retake some courses in order to improve my score.

well, i try to be focus in my academic life right now. i have no side jobs right now, nor any project. i think i should have a focus and a will to make my parents proud of me, then i could reach my dream afterwards. i also rethinking about my milestone of dreams. i look onto the details. it's funny to stare at myself and asking same question, "why do you always stuck in the same problem over and over again?"

i was searching the best reasons for that, but i couldn't find any. i couldn't make any conclusion nor explanation. so, i put the the problem aside.

once a time, my friend told me, "there are two types of problem. the first is unavoidable problem. the problem you can't run from it. the problem needs to be solved as soon as possible. the problem that will affect your life instantly. second, is the problem that either you can face it or just skip it. if it's facing the problem only cause much more negativity than its positiveness, it's better to put the problem aside."

well, i should agree with this opinion, i think, the real problem of mine is i over analyzed my problems. over analyzed is not good! because i waste most of time to find the root of the problem, while my life needs solution immediately.

so, this is my life. i spent most of time with friends, assignments stuff, and family. the only thing that bothered my mind is, i'm getting old, and i am still unproductive. i feel little ashamed. while some of my friends could make their own pocket money, i'm still asking for that. my parents wont be young forever, there will be a time i need to support their life financially. that's why i really hope i can finish this courses soon! and earn some money. but the way i earn it, i still have not much idea. but of course, i will earn some money, and gain some wealth. for my family.

last but not least, i would to share a good word today,
"someone who experienced hurt, will know how to value compassion"