I feel like losing my days, what I've been done in these recent days. Where do days gone? I was busy with targets, did my proposal and assignment stuffs. I am planning to apply for my master scholarship, yet the deadline is almost close. I need to make my presentation also, for seminary. I am tired, but I need to make these things done.
Sadly, I feel my boyfie is not really interested in being a cheerleader for my basic needs, e.g. : flourishes me with delightful words, hug me to relieve my pain, or just told me that everything will be alright. I should known that he was busy with graduation thingy (by the way, i felt honored to accompany him in his graduation), and he is looking for job in this current time.
At the end, I know that it always me, to face everything by myself. I don't mean to sound selfish, but the fact that I only can count on myself somehow slapped me to reality. Now, I am afraid of two things: 1. Not being prepared, 2. I run out of time.
I think, Preparation is important, and I always take the extra miles for that. But Somehow, fear is something that always haunted me. I think my relationship is going to be in comma. But, our commitment is more than just feeling. I think, this is about hope, dream, and targets in our life. We might get busy in ourselves stuffs, yet we're loving each other more than we thought we do.
I am just not feeling good today, and I think, I need to pray a lot more.
Happy Friday Fellas! :)
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we have the same condition mbak nad.myboyfie is also busy with graduation stuff, being jobseeker, and more sensitive.err~
ReplyDeleteHi Nabila, sorry for being late in replying comments, i thought there were just random comments. well, my boyfie had graduated and i was happy for him. yeaaaah, ppl tend to be sensitive, but i think he needs support more than us. soo, cheer up Nabila, we can beat this :) !
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