How can I lie

How can I lie to myself and being such a pathetic girl. I know myself better than everybody else, and I know that I always want to try everything and decide my thing at the end.
Right now, I am in the moment of not knowing what I am really looking for. I mean, of course, my focus is to finish my master but after master I still have no idea of what am I going next.

To travel is something on top of my list, I want to see places and people and I want to meet them personally. I want to know life other than mine.

I want to be settled at the end, but I don't know whom I become with. I mean, of course, it'll be my boyfriend (90% of certainty) but, how do you know that someone is the one? Is it the one that you can't live without or is it the one that no matter what happened with your life, he/she is always staying there and be there for you.

I am in the point of not knowing whether this life will end up as I plan before or totally different than my expectation. After I tried many of possibilities in my life, I am getting sure that everything is mostly possible and I know that my dream is more than just a wistful thinking of mine.

I believe I can make it true, and I know I am on my way now...