nothing's going to blog (fasting effect)

nothing's out from my head.
i'm not thinking about food, i'm not thinking about job, duty, or anything else.
it seemed blank.

forget about blog material!
forget about how bad my feeling is after woke up!
forget about how tempting fruits and vegetables are..

just focus to my words.

i only think one thing on this entire month:

first: i'm not the part of a situation. but, what a coincidence, i knew all the scenario.

why, i should mention it's "scenario" ??

because it just made up.

i knew from the twitter, i knew from emails, i knew from fb notif, fb emails... from the beginning until now. i repeat again, UNTIL NOW!

how to stop that? that's not my business. i don't want to know. but, that "forwarded" notif can't stop going to my email.

if only i have power to stop and ended all these things. i want those people stares on the mirror.
to see their own first...

the boy said, "sorry"
but the girl actually made up it first...
at the end the girl blamed the boy.
"can't stop believing... bla bla...
but actually, the girl shows this possibility first. but when the boy succeed. then the girl, can't believes the boy's success??"

the boy said, "just you"
but, in fact there are several list about "just you girl" on his emails.
it's about 3 to 5 girls.
and he ever text me one day, said sorry or such a thing! (in my heart say: please stop it! we both know it just a lie)

the boy, tell to the girl bestie, to help him. but, actually. with or without help from her bestie. i knew, they both love to be wrong... so why they made such a drama?

i knew, from the both side. but, i can't stop that bothered me.
please GOD, end this thingy!

i can't stand this, to keep it as my own secret. being silent. being dump. and being soo pathetic.

i don't want to be part of this situation.
it just like read, "5 people you meet in heaven" novel. but in a real life.

and it's not fun you know!
to know everything that supposed to be NOT!

please, stop... please don't be a fake.
please, just straight on your way...

how poor your true love is, if they understand what's actually happened.

stop this flow on my head GOD, please... i have my own life. why do You make me stickied with this?

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yes, on the first fasting day, i'm thinking of it, on entire day...
how poor i'm..
but, it makes me not feel hungry actually.

and 30 minutes again is break time=)