i eat then i sleep, i sleep then i eat. sleep and eat, sleep and eat. i guess life doesn't painful anymore when i think of foods and dreams.
anything out there can't touch me in sleep, and anything inside felt numb while eating.
tell me, how to survive, when everything i expected before out of my hand? i even scare to dream, i fear of failure and rejection. i am afraid, i am afraid.
low esteem, dark future, oh please... never been so gloom like this before. if only, i can stand up again, i won't trade anything to lose. all i want, is a chance.
so tell me God, if i've done my best, would You give me the best?
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Dear Aulia the maiden name of angels,
ReplyDeletehow could you know God has given you the best but you doesn't sure He will give you the best of all? :-)
By The Way, why you choose that name?
'Aulia: the maiden name of angels'
Hm, I'm only curious. Hehe.
Hallo, my name is Nadia, Aulia is my mother's
ReplyDeletethat's why this blog should named: aulia the maiden of angels (aulia :nama bidadari)
first of all, we have to synchronize our perception about "The Best", actually i don't really know what kind of best it is.
i think, the best thing for me, is anything i want. okay, i know that wasn't good.
but, what if your world is falling apart.. imagine you have to be in the lowest point in your life. so you think past is better than present?
you may say the same, you'll pray for another chance to make it better and easier for you..that's what i do :)
Oh I see...
ReplyDeleteBut I still get any 'nggeregeti' moment for this one
"so tell me God, if i've done my best, would You give me the best?"
hehe. I'm poor in English but still using English (sok2an nih).
Okay. Back to the topic, I think it would be better if you say"so tell me God, if I've done my best, would You give me hidayah for understanding Your best?"
Hm... Do you agree that your sentence before seems like you manage your God?
Btw. Hope you would be have more patient for all fitnah (ujian) on this life. Amen.