Summer's Diary: a long journey ahead

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

a long journey ahead

Tonight, is our 4th anniversary. i made spaghetti bolognese to celebrate it, and my boyfie wasn't like it. he dislikes Italian food, my God, how different we are. i am a big fan of Italian dish, he prefers Indonesian or Japanese foods. I hate soyu (Japanese salty ketchup). The only Japanese food i liked, is Octopus in sushi tei. I hate sashimi, i don't really like sushi, i am not a fan of Japanese food :(

this is a note for me: "do not cook anything Italian, Nadia!"

Well, holiday is not that bad. i used into it... i rest my nerve for a while, my gpa is launched already. i got my good marks back!!! :) no more nightmares....i hope. well, i am still struggling with my final project. chapter two is on progress, yet very slow.

My boyfie is busy with graduation thingy, he should passes TOEFL (english proficiency as foreign language). He said something um, surprising, this afternoon. he said, well, he wants to continue study and it'll happen in a moment. i was so shocked. my God, i am going to have another long distance relationship in my life. again. again. and again.

i knew, this thing will be happened, sooner or later, but still, i am not ready. please, i am not ready. i am crying, i couldn't stop. it's like hit by a heavy rock right onto your heart. i know, i am such a drama queen. i am drama queen.

hiks, tonight is my 4th month anniversary, and i am crying on my pillow. not because my boyfie means to me, he is good. he is beyond my expectation. it's all because, i am too afraid of losing him. we have been together in the same collage, same city, same circle of friendship. i can't imagine, if we will be apart. does he forget me then? will he lie? crap. i am not going to wander my thought any further.... i am afraid.

happy 24! by the way, i love this keychain :)