Stay with me

I am very very very stupid and I couldn't stop hating myself.

Last night I told to boyfie that I won't need anything more than just faith in our relationship. Suddenly this morning, I mistakenly delete my Line where all our pictures and chats are stored. Yeah, Nadia, you definitely don't need anything but faith! and I was stumbling, sobbing, crying, like a mess.

Life is always have a funny way to proof that you can be wrong.

Then, because of like always, my pride is overshadow my weaknesses,
I took shower and crying, what if all of things I hold on to is gone?

What if, when the millennium gets to be too sophisticated and a couple had fight and decided to erase their memory, and it that case they are long distance relationship... where on earth they could trace the history. Will our memory last? What if when someone grows old he/she gets an Alzheimer?

Okay, enough, I am too much drama.

But that's slightly true. I can't keep my boyfriend near yet. And many many many times, LDR is horrible. How come I fall for someone thousand miles away from me? How come I dream about someone whom I rarely meet? How come I cried on my sleep (like my roommate trying to convince me I did crying!)  and when I woke up I can't remember that?

Dear God, Allah, and Mountains, please please please.... I beg You, could you keep him safe always, could we meet soon? could we be together in the near proximity and without time difference, in the same roof is most preferable.

I spent my whole life to pursue what other people expect me to have, and I do enjoy it. But, if there is one thing that directly come to me without second thoughts; it's love.

No one on earth love me this perfectly, and no one on this universe could describe how strong a love can be.

I mean, really, love motivates me to run, love motivates me to wake up at sole-night, love motivates me not to eat red meat, love motivates me enjoy working, love motivates me to love myself more, love gives me laughs, love makes me smiles a lot, love makes me cry in joy, love makes me jealous in particular way that I can't control, love makes me learn that it's always better to love than to hate, love makes our heart softer.

I realise one thing now.
when you meet a right person, everything is worth it.