night is killing

i had a lot of fun today, but my mood turns to blue at night. i don't know why, mostly because i can't keep in touch with family, bestfriend, and of course nothing to do with...you know... hidden relationship.

i went to different religion relationship before, but i don't need to hide from everyone. just parents.

and it's quite easy, since i did professional relationship thou.

and this one, i also try to be professional. i don't know is it going well or not. but i still can manage my mood. even sometime, it's really...you know... unbearable!

i want to share something like any other couple.

does my feeling is not important?

i don't blame anyone

i mean, i choose this way.

i choose this hard way, i have to take some consequences.

i try to trust my boyfriend. i know, logically it's silly! am i girl who's always being cheated, and i try to trust someone who told me that he was a jerk. can you imagine that?

like i never learn.

but i don't know, his words kind of sugar. i can't resist his charm.

and we have purpose, that's the most important.

that's why i keep going with this.

keep going

keep going

keep going....

while the night is killing...

i try to keep going,

keep going

keep going