the only exception

I'm listening to paramore the only exception rite now, what a deep lyrics flood in my nerves. i mean, all of us, at least have one exception of everything.

what's your exception?

day goes by, far far away from my home. actually i feel numb. i don't know which one is better, staying at home and do my routines or go somewhere, meets new peoples, but none will beside me.

and even the extreemest one will say, "someday you will need someone besides you"

is it sweet? i think it's ironic.

i really want to be independent and do all the things by myself, but at the end, i want a family. yeah, i need someone to rely on. and it means it needs a consequence.

so, which one is better?

God, am crying...

i really happy when i can help so many peoples, give those kids environmental educations, taking care of children in shelter home, share so many cultural experiences with my forigner friends, prevent this earth from extinction. a lot things to do.

but i want a family. a good family. i want my own kids, taking care of them, teach them with experiences, and living together.

Micha, a friend from German said to me: "that's life, you will always get some and lose some..."

true!

so, which one is better?

everything becomes twisted, since i think too much. because i can't logic all the things. that's why we have at least one exception.

one exception to sneak out from routines

one exception to lie to our lover

one exception to stay

one exception to hold someone too long until it hurts

one exception to cry

one exception.

Dear lover, would you notice? but if you're not. then, maybe i need to wait.

Dear my Lord, Do you hear my pray? give me some clues... am lost.

Dear my heart, please don't sad....don't cry....