Let my unfinished dreams go...

This idea just popped my mind. As a girl, I have so many dreams. I want to travel around the world, 30 countries in my 45. Or, I want to write a book about life journey. Or, I want to invent something useful for humanity.

I mean, from the 3 dreams above, my dreams are so big! Yet so challenging. I keep focusing myself how to achieve them, like read more books, write more articles, learn another language, build an international circle of friendship and so on and so on.

But the older I become, the more I realize, there are more things more necessary to do, to think, and to be fought rather than my selfish idea about "world". This idea isn't from the books I read, this idea comes from my textbook studies, my lecturer, my friends, my daily life. I spent so many days to think about future and my goals. Once, I take time to see around, I felt so.... Missed.

People around me, they do exist in my life. They also have expectations from me. It's not about my dreams, it's all about how we live together, and how we can help each other.

Don't think too far about humanity, do you really care to your friends, N? *talk to myself*
Do not mention 30 countries in your life, do you really have done something for your country? *talk to myself*

Once my boyfriend said, "do you know that nationality is given? It's a gift."

Yes! I known that phrase since couple years ago, but then, I just knew the meaning.

If this life meant to be like this. I mean, I was born in Indonesia, I have asian face, asian heir, asian blood, I was born lefties and different, I was accepted in Industrial Engineering department, I got a chance to promote Indonesia at a time in my life, I got so many opportunities to gain my career in broadcasting, journalism, and arts that I never taking care seriously. Then all the stuff happened that way. All of my stories in the past already written and determined. It's a gift.

So does my nationality. All the facts that I tried to hard to change. I CAN'T CHANGE FACTS, NEVER.

It's useless to use my dream, as a sneaky way to avoid realities. Dreams are different thing when you have to deal with realities.

I'm not so going to dream right now. I want to do something, more things. I want to fix some stuffs before it's too late. Before it's too late....

"Everyone can dream, but only few peoples make their dream comes true....."

The marks are: "dream is a noun", "make is a verb"

Get what I mean?
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