This shit is always happened to me. Why do I become person who is so loser, lazy, and has a lack of will.

My mother is a dominant person, she is a righteous one. I always admire her, all of her achievements, success, and stuffs.

But then, she never understand me. She's too cool to understand me. She's strong, and I'm not that strong.

I really want to cry, every time I realize that I'm the only different in my family.

I hate of being different, and not being trusted. I know it was my bad. I know how bad it caused. That was my faults.

But, don't they think, that my feelings are important too?

I'm afraid of this kind "family war". They matter the most for me. it's like I really need to prove something to my parents.....something that can't be easily earned.

Trust is an issue.
It'll be always an issue.

God, please, please, please...........


Can you Give me a chance, so my parents trust me??
I'm the eldest of my sisters. I always know this responsibility. But, I'm just different. They should handle me in different ways. Aaaaaaah, stuck.

I love my mom.
I love my family.
No matter what.
I always have and always will.
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