getting hungry at 3:00 am and too much thinking

what kind of planet do i live in actually??
people sleep at 9 but, i starts my life at 11..
and i'm getting hungry at 3 am..

dream supper:


you know, besides food, now my head full of questions.. i don't think that i know much more than everyone else, but, i have more time to thinking deeply..

everybody has problems, some problems can be solved, the rest just ended in trash. i ever watch a film, MAX PAYNE (here the link if somebody curious on it: click me)
in this movie, Max, a police depart on an infamous job, dept. of COLD CASE. and hellya, now i know.. where all problems, victims, and cases ended..in COLD CASE.
bunch of paper, bunch of data.. all data all cases all mysteries, not burden in a trash..not throw away on the street..get over it and forget..
but, it still safe (safe in a corner, less people see is better)..


and i think deeply, is it similar in the real world??
you think you can throw your problems, or blew it like plane paper... but it still lack in your mind..
wishful thinking.. ahh..


there are many problems in this world.. small problems to big problems..
e.g:
a. my oily face
b. my assignment
c. my insomnia
d. my friends complicated problems
e. the old photograph of my friend
f. my boyfriend and his past
g. my past
h. material for today subject
i. election
j. global crisis
k. global warming
l. Philippine unstable politics
m. poorer living standard in india
n. crisis in Moldova ???

see... how many problems were in and out from my head... makes me hungry... makes me feels.. "thank God, i still alive, and my live is much much better than 26million another Indonesian..."