Memang paling enak kalo nge-junk di blog, karena nggak banyak orang yang liat.

Well, report-report...

I step into (I hope) my last relationship.
Well, not yet, a happy ending story...
It just like a new beginning.

I don't know why I turns to him...well, logically, it will be difficult for both of us.

Or it will proof that I love challenge that much? I don't know.
He's a pilot, and he doesn't have much time.

He's a pilot with too many girls around.
He's a man, who wants a feminine girl besides him (I really work for that)
He's a man, who wants a full time wife at home (I'm still dealing with it).
He's a man, that really gentleman!

For some girls, it just like a dream...hey I got a pilot on my side.
But for me, it's little..okay.. So much..confusing.

What about my dreams?
What about dozens stewardess around him?
Why he's too cold in public?

Well maybe, he doesn't love me that much, but I'm dying to see him happy.
I want to be with someone like him, in my future.

Besides in these couple days, I'm going to KL for internship. And I don't know if I could contact him as intense as in Surabaya.

And I don't know does he really keep his faith for me. I'm afraid he will cheat behind my back.... I know I trust him.

I trust him, that he's serious with me.
I trust him, that he won't let me down.

But I can't trust him, if its related to other girls.... I can be so cold and not care. But I can't prevent my heart from another pain.

Pain to pain...
I know, loving him, is my new chapter, of pain to pain.

Well, last but not least, I won't give up that easy.
I won't give up on him!!

I heart him.
Alfisyahr ♥