Pros and Cons

Having german boyfriend is something I never imagine before. I always have something to german boys, I find them attractive and manly but I never imagine I could have one.

My 1st experience was back to early spring in 2011 when I met my german friend and we sort of had a good time due to our talks and interests. But that was it.

Then, fast forward to 2013, I met a german in my mandarin class and one of our management course. I found him attractive, as german in general but I wasn't have any particular feeling towards him. 'Till I found the truth that he is interested in me.

He started the talks, and he asked me for picnic (yeah, a picnic). And we were both getting closer and closer.

Today is our 2 months, since he admitted he has feeling for me. I even don't remember that it should be today.

I know he has something for me, and that feeling is deep. I can see it, and he tries his best to bridge our gap (cultural and everything.. He googled my city, place I live and etc).

I know a german won't do this with his fling. I know that somewhere in his head, he wants to keep me longer than a fling. But we both know we can't. There are some reasons:

1. We have different religion. Though I am not a strict moslem and in fact I don't mind to change, I do have family and relatives that definitely will become furious if they know my intention.

2. LDR is simply stupid for asian girl and western boy. Why? Asian girl is 99% dependent at heart and western boy has his testosterone greatly active.

3. We will encounter some challenges by environment we live, wherever we stay. I know, challenges is interesting and good, but too much stupid challenges will just slow down your other goals.

But we also have some pros points:

1. To fall for a person that completely different from you and you enjoy the company, it must be a real thing.

2. The world is more open to mixed couple and mixed couple makes better offspring

3. From differences you learn something more than the others, you just simply become richer at heart.

4. To know that both of you are fitted together and the physical activity is amazing. Is something that you cannot just let go.


So my point is, both of our decision will have its advantage and its lost. However, life is unpredictable and interesting if you have adventurer soul. I hope by the time he's leaving me, I already know the answer of my confusion.

Finally,
I also have a goal. If only I fall for him, I will find anyway... Every possible way to reach him there with my own effort.

When I am done with Chinese, I will learn formally Deutsch, cause.. I believe that you only can understand how people thinking by talking their talk and behaving their walk.

So, let see... How's my life going!

Ps: He calls me "Nad" today, and it's cute how he calls me with accent. That adorable accent!

Ps: because of him, I, now, think much about my appearance as well as my engine. I try little bit sport and I read global news, you know germans are so updated with these kind of real things. I am just too influenced by him.

Ps: he is better than indonesian Nicolas Saputra, he just simply has better genes that our actors in Indonesia (that's a bonus for me)