what do you want?

You learned that love is concept that always different for each people.
I've been in love with someone who doesn't love me back
I've betrayed people that really love me
I've been desperately in love with someone completely different than me.

The point is, whatever happens, this is life. Sometimes, you get what you want, sometimes you lost what you want. I changed my boyfriend as fast as I change my soft lens. Sometimes, my heart broken, sometimes I broke their heart. I know that life is about karma, what you reap is what you sow.

The thing is, those concepts are so blur. Many times, bad actions have really good reason so does the opposite.

I really don't want to hurt people I loved, but I cannot lie to myself.
At first, I thought I want to have some fun then I turned to be really fall to someone.
At first, I don't even care that I hurt good people I loved
The more I think, the more I feel guilty.

Was it my mistake? and What do I want?

I believe that love is a great design, and this thing was not my intention from the very beginning.
I don't know why I fall to completely stranger?
I was trying so hard to avoid these things happened to my life
I simply can't

I wish I have my best friends here, they know me best.
They are always with me from one to another broken heart.

This time, I completely alone
I completely alone

Most of time, I think I don't deserve love
I am not a good girl
I am lack of commitment and I changed my heart quite often

I am always searching something I couldn't find
and losing something I couldn't remember