As a self-enjoyable writer, I find this quote is pretty amazing. To understand how your brain works, somehow you need to tear down your own fortress. The fortress could be appear in many forms: etiquette, socio-norms, your belief, your pride, the ability to lie yourself, and your self consciousness.
We, by all means, usually we drawn into other's judgement over our own appraisal. Yet, many many of phrase, quotes, and wisdom words are spoken to raise our esteem to see ourselves the way we want to be seen, the way we want to represent our well-being.
I can't say that I rarely judge people and create their image on my perception, but I know what I am thinking is not matter to others, as my imagination will only lead me to be mistakenly understood person and I don't like it.
But, when problem seems appear because you made a false judgement and decision, you will questioning yourself not others. You know, how bad does someone treat himself badly? I can say, most of us has a tendency to harm ourselves than others. We let people judge ourselves, and we speak for them not for ourselves.
They might think you came from lower civilisation and has no intelligent to represent the front-line next generation. World speaks up to defeat its "stupid" counterpart just to make sure superior society is still leading in humanity. As I say this, I also judge them and it's so vengeful.
So question always lingering on my mind, how to be a good person without bad judgement? How can I express my everything without hurting anybody?
I want to say that I am not just an average Indonesian girl who dream to have a decent family in future, I am passionate to hike career ladder and I want to be a provider for my family. I want to enjoy fancy things as much as other princesses spoiled by their wealthy-corrupt parents. I want to have the best husband that people will dream of, a handsome, a success, with good humor. I want to see places far from home, to live different life and be happy there. Every irrelevant action I took, was always these reasons by that.
I go this far to achieve these materialistic things in life, I never long for moral value as deep as I long for continuity of my successors and a deep desire to provide them better life than mine. Once I dreamed to be remembered, but it was long gone. There are billions, trillions people die without any reminiscence. I could be one of them.
Until that time comes, I think our life purpose is to understand life itself. Every experience shapes us to make better judgement, and it takes a bad judgement to get one. Again, "hope" is a strong word, whereas all humanity will long for something. Losing hope will lead to the greatest despair and long grieving of nothing but meaningless life.
At the end of the day, we don't need any liquor to make us drunk, we only need a pen and a good heart to be honest to ourselves and to do good things for others.
We live to serve, We live to understand.
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