Fish in the bottle

I always dreamt about random dreams. Last night, I couldn't remember the whole story of my dreams. The 1st was spartan guys fighting against another spartan lookalikes and they are saved by space shuttle which more like dorm's fan case rather than a space shuttle.
The space shuttle is round like tire and it sucks people inside to save them. In order to activate the suck shield, you have to say some magic words. I really have no idea the meaning of my 1st dream.
The 2nd one was about fish. I bought so many fish in bottles. Each fish in different bottle. But I forgot about my fish, I kept there for quite sometimes. Later on, I saw my fish dying.. I asked my maid which aquarium should I put them, the pond is big but I am afraid they'll be eaten by catfish/fish monster there, the another aquarium is for salt water purpose. While these fish are fresh water.
I kept thinking and let them dying... I forgot the end of my dream, but the feeling watching them slowly die was a very sad feeling. Sometimes, my dreams aren't about the story. It was about the feeling that came with it.

Last two days I dreamt about my boyfriend, I couldn't remember anything, but the feeling was comforting.
I guess, it was something related to him and a little girl with black hair. He was in supermarket to buy jams. He lift a little girl with long black hair so the girl could reach top of the rack. But I totally forgot the details.

This morning, I woke up... And I feel like the fish in the bottle. I am dying... I want to meet my boyfriend, I want hugs, I need my oxygen..

Many people are trying to be realistic in their life, and so do I. But every morning I realized that I can't lie to myself, I have feelings and I am not a rationalist.

If we don't have to worry about future this much, I really want to pack my bag and go to his arms directly.
I wonder if the time will come, when I can feel that my reality will be better than my dreams, the time that I have him beside me.

Please please please.... There's nothing in the whole world I want as much as to keep this relationship for eternity.