I am happy

I am extremely happy, I have so much love in my life and surrounded by many many good people. My boyfriend is in the top of that; is an incredible person who has brilliant jokes, nice, caring, and handsome! that's a bonus.

Most of time I've been let down by boys, usually they don't do as much as girls try to do. It's like unequal effort in relationship. But with my boyfriend, I know what I am doing and I can say that we both work on this.

Yesterday, I got a package full of chocolates from him and I was like charlie in chocolate factory. A poor kid who got a lucky ticket to visit the marvellous willy wonka chocolate factory. The feeling of "loving and being loved" is the best feeling on earth. In addition that the person we fall in love with is such an amazing person, could double the amazing-ness. that's true.

When I was a kid I believed that adult life is like a fairytale, as long as you are a nice kid, you'll get your prince charming someday. When I was teenage, I changed and I though fairy tale was a crap, I saw two people hate each other after a long relationship, someone's betrayed another, etc. But now, I feel like in between.

There are many incredible stories in this world. We may never know, whether this life will be comedy or tragedy but  I choose to enjoy, I choose to believe and let me fall in romance.

okay... back to package!

So, he sent me chocolate, sweets, a mineral! I love mineral stones... I only have amethyst before, but now I have a rose quartz with hooked hearts shape. Though I am not a collector, but this is so romantic. Imagine how long a diamond or minerals are made inside this earth, the effort to mine them, and to shape them... Something rare, unique, and one and only.

He sent me also other things like his fave beer and a youthful drink. He must be tired to hear my complain about youthfulness and how I hate to grow old! that's true...


I can't imagine if I grow old, will I still write a diary like 13 years old kid? In fact I am doing this more than 10 years now.

Uh, the idea of growing old reducing my happiness.

His mom also gave many kinds of lotions, it was really sweet and thoughtful. Only if, I am growing old... I want to be more like her, still so happy and warm and so nice to others.

I remember my best friends who always be there for me, my labmates who always offer helps, my roommate who always try to give me something, my many many passing friends (friends which I meet once and never know when we'll see each other again), people that I meet on the streets during my back pack trips, the dorm lady, an old man who works on 7th floor in my building, my prof... yeah, even though he gave me lot of stress also.. my bachelor advisor, my parents, grandpa grandma, sisters and namira! I can't have enough of namira's charm. She's so adorable and has really sensitive heart. One time she cried because we tease her to go her own home instead of playing in our home. I can't believe she suddenly cried...or maybe I was too harsh. I miss Mira.

Uhhh, and ai korea in shuimui who usually gave me extra tofu, my hamsters, tookie and bonci - the cats, my driver from long time ago... I remember he saved me from my parents because I skipped so many tutor classes to go out with friends, and instead of picking me up from school he always picked me up somewhere else, my maids... everyone. How can I live without their love. One hate is too much and thousands love are not enough.


At the end, the love we take is equal to the love we make -John Lennon-


So, who says fairy tale doesn't exist? I can feel like in a fairy world now. It's really depends on how you see kindness in everything and I choose to see the bright sight.