Taking a Leap

Once I had an internship in a telecom company whereas my aunt was a GM in the department I worked in, I saw her very differently compare to the normal aunt that I used to know.
She's such an encouraging person who orders everyone and attracts everyone. I was working as her assistant one day and I saw how she manage with partners, push employee performance, and achieve unbelievable targets.
Later I know, most of my courses are implemented practically there.
My Profs are always talking about Lean, Marketing Mix, and Dynamic Measurement, which I always assume, they are total bullshit.
But my aunt didn't think so.

She made "taking a giant leap" as her tagline for the department, by the way, it's a finance and banking department. She pushed all the managers to work on saturday and sunday by ordering extra foods and promising extra bonus. She made US$ million deals by her own, and let all the necessary resource take into account. She doesn't care with anything glamorous, all she concerns is just "progress and achievement"
I remember that everyday, at least she came home at 10pm. I should say that her department is quite important, since it has big percentage of company's revenue which also dealing with Indonesian banking system, all of it.

But, even how big her work and project are.. She's still my aunt who always clumsy most of time. Like my mom, both of them are superpowers. And because I am relative, I have to work more to show them my quality.
My aunt pushed me to work overnight and gave me holistic projects so I can learn from each sub department. A manager taught me in person every evening to evaluate my progress.

I portray myself to be like my mom or my aunt someday. I knew how she climbed the career, because she used to sleep on a bunk bed with me in my young age. I know how hard she pushed herself to the limit, how unbreakable and determined she is. But, is it enough today?

Today's competition is very fierce. They said the weather in England is so unstable, yet in my home country it is the growth of economy which accounts to be unstable.

I don't know if both of my aunt and my mom have this kind of uncertainty in their life. Do they know that they'll become big someday? Because I really have no idea what's upfront.

I can say that I am quite optimistic about the future and I enjoy every moment of study life. But... Can I beat the chores and be on the top? Can I handle the stress which comes together with success? Do people trust me to lead them? Do I have enough skill to empower the management? I often think about it and calculating the passing competition that I may face.

I am not afraid of dreaming big, I am just afraid that I am taking a wrong leap.
Most people say, don't mix career and personal life, I do believe differently.
I believe that you can be success in both ways. I believe that one success will affect another.

So, do I have to take a leap first... Or do I have to believe in my dream first?
Because at this moment, all I dream about is finishing my master. That'll be my biggest leap in next upcoming year.