blog walker on thoughts

3.08 am right now, and I can't sleep as usual. I really push my self to the 'good routine', but I can't.. And I'm afraid I will lose for a bet of morning-wake-up.
I know, truthfully there is nothing I've to fear.. I have a great life recently, and I have good friends indeed.
But there is something lack in my life, I don't know what. It's not about a guy or whatever.. It's something much priceless.
When I took a trip to pacet yesterday, me and my team was discovering Majapahit ( I'll discuss it later, full report of Majapahit, I swear)
But, my point is.. When I saw one by one of Majapahit heritage, I realized that I'm just a little part of this BIG world.
I'm just a tiny part of this lifetime. And nothing makes me special except I could be legend, like Ken Dedes, or Ken Arok.
I'm afraid people will forget me, and nothing left from my story.
That's why I want to be 'A Meaning'
Someone with her story, someone life with her brave, or someone which is contribute in another people life.
I think I was born to make difference on this life, I stand for my beliefs, and I'm out for being inspired and inspiring another.
So, I hope when I die, people still remember me..
Even there were 100 years passed, people still remember me.
I don't want to be like Chairil Anwar with his thousand years alive, I just want to be like Soe Hok Gie. Die young but last forever in people's memory.
Okay, it's 3.25 right now, I really have to push myself for sleep...
Nite blogpals =)

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