Just random thoughts

I think, love isn't just about heart.
I think, love must be logical. Physical. And experimental.

When I was with you, I feel like you were the center of gravity.
My attention.
My love.
My all.
Completely for you.

I tried so hard to change my focus
I tried so hard to run from you
But you were my gravity
I gave my all.

Soon, after you deceived my integrity.
Hurt my feelings.
humiliated my logic.
Played me.
Betrayed me.

I knew. You never learn.
I was so angry.
I was so ashamed of myself.

How could I love someone like you?
How could I share my dreams with you?
How could I rely on you?

But I knew, it such a waste.

For you, I was a mistake.
For me, you were delusion.

I'm not mad of you.
I'm not angry.
I forgave what you did.
Everyone made mistake.

And my conclusion goes to these point:

Hating you is the way easier than forgive you.
Loving you is the way easier than leaving you.
Blaming you is the way easier than understands you.

But

I choose the hard way.


Someday, sooner or later, you'll learn, when life's getting hard.
When you'll had kids.
Unexpected problems probably will come.
And family will rely on you.
And you'll be regret for several mistakes in the past.
And you (probably don't) have much time. To fix it.

So many people came and went away from your life.

And I am one of them.

I tell you, good luck.
I tell you, good luck.

I'll be okay.
Please, be good.
Only if you become a good person, this decision will be worth the pain.

:)
Nadia Aulia